lostlillaura23

I hate the way I make people feel, and I hate the way they make me feel.  Don't fool yourself with illusions.  Nothing will turn out the way you expect it to, in a good way.  If you tell yourself you might get dissapointed, you won't take it as harshly if it happens.  Trying to stay positive is setting yourself up for dissapointment.  This isn't organized, this is just a rush of how I feel right now.  I hate the way I am lately. I keep pushing some people away, for I don't know what reason.  I give up on trying to make life good. If it's supposed to be, it'll happen.

I feel myself becoming depressed and careless at the same time.

I wish that we didn't define each other.

First, I'd like to begin with a couple things about myself you might want to know.

I'm going to make something out of myself.  I've been drifting between many career options, and I am still not sure of what I want to do yet.  I want a job that is fun, that I love. This is why I wanted to be a massage therapist. Then I had a bad experience with an MT, and I changed my mind.  Plus,  I don't want to touch people I don't know.  Then, I wanted to be a Psychologist. Unfortunately, that requires a lot of schooling, and I'd like to enjoy life while I'm still young.  I do wish to help people though, which is why I thought about working in a Drug Rehab.  I really want to help people, but I just don't know how. 

Now, I want to work as a Travel Journalist. 

I want to get out of this place and become something real.